What if

What if
the reason you hate your body
is because you’re comparing it
to the wrong ideal
and although
society tries to teach you
self love
you can’t help looking
at all your flaws

What if
the second you start to wonder
if maybe you’re not a female
you feel at peace
with your body
like it suddenly isn’t so bad
and you feel
so
much
more
comfortable

What if
you’ve lived for 21 years
without feeling wrong
and now you still don’t
but when you look in the mirror
and see yourself as a man
everything seems
so
much
better

What if
this was you
would you be scared?

6 thoughts on “What if

  1. THIS.
    It isn’t that we’re inherently unhappy with yourselves, just with the current structures of thinking about ourselves. I am certainly happy with thinking of myself as different genders depending on how I feel (question: is this what gender fluid means?) The most interesting thing is, no one seems to really be surprised or care whatever I say about my gender. I think because people, like your friends, have already committed to loving you they try to listen with an open ear about how you feel about yourself and accept to the best of their ability everything you say, even if it’s weird. Which is nice. I’ve felt this way all my life and it’s made me depressed, but it’s like someone waving a magic wand when you say “It’s not an inherent problem, just a matter of perspective”. Also, nice poem. šŸ™‚

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    1. I’m glad everybody is taking your feelings about your gender in a positive way! I get that it can be impossible for them to understand completely, but listening and accepting the best they can is really good.
      Thank you, I didn’t even think about it that way but looking back on it that makes a lot of sense! I’m pleased that it’s helped- how you look at a problem definitely has a lot to do with how you react to it šŸ™‚

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    1. Yay for finding communities of people who feel the same way, and yay for the internet for allowing us to find them. You don’t have to define or label yourself if you don’t want to, but I’m also struggling with trying to pick one just to make it easier to explain to people (the closest I’ve come so far is ‘I’m not a girl but other than that I have no clue. Probably more masculine but I don’t feel masculine so maybe agender?’ which is a bit of a mouthful haha).
      The link is interesting, I kind of relate to the genderflux definition, of relating to gender neutral and the gender spectrum but in varying levels of intensity- I seem to flick between nothing and masculine, with definite days where the feelings are more intense.

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